From love to hatred.
Still rmb i used to love this instrument and felt hw nice can an instrument can be, but now, practice seems to be a mission to me.
Last time i would take out all my time to practice cos i love it? But now seems like i must practice due to stress. Argh, im so stress...i canyt practice nw cos my string snap, and means i have to spend money again to buy strings. I envy those rich families who can afford to support their child anything, seriously anything! Now i felt im wasting my money on these stuff....and i decided...im nt going to play tt after the concerto.
Every 1 felt great for the new year, but im not, cos i have to spend more money for the unnecessary. 1st, the taiwan trip, to some of you might think its a great opportunity to go overseas and perform, but to me is a waste of money (again). Wat you will do therE? perform...Wat you get? Experience? is it really needed for me? well..i can say no. I rather staying home and rest...im ok being left out from the grp photos. Sometimes i really felt im forced to do things.
2nd is due to the concerto. Aiya...scold me idiot or watever you wan, cos me myself also think im an idiot...to propose the concerto which i cant perform well! If i can perform well...mayb god is helping me la, if nt i think its obvious, cos i cant play well....2008, bad yr for me. Nvm...all these will get thru after august.But i will try my best to do it well...cos tts wat i wanna do
O...Great...2008 also a start of uni for me. SHIT, im forced again la, study study study, 1 day i will get mad n go ard shouting n laughing w/o any reason. Scary isnt it. When ppl getting older, they tend to miss their path , unless they alrdy secure it.ROAR
Now, wat i wan to do, my parents dun like it..or simply object it...im nt happy.
I love u.
I love u.